Nothing to prove but love

If we had nothing to prove but love

We might sit on the Santa Lucia Mountains

On the coast of California

Breathing in the rolling, dome shaped mountains

And wildflowers blooming

As you watch sea otters rafting in kelp beds through my eyes

And the waves of the pacific batter the rocks

But as we restrain ourselves in the name of perfection

We find ourselves

Chained to and starring into the wall of a cave

Our wretched minds contort

Our imagery of grass is greener

Our betrays and lies in the holy name of All we ever wanted was everything

Did we but travel through

The long and uncomfortable road

To nothing to prove but love

Where you would see me

Even when I don’t project

The last woman you were in love with

Where you would see me

Even when I don’t project

The next woman you think you’ll love

Where you would see me

For whom I am

The sea otter rafting in the kelp beds

The pacific wave battering the rocks

The wildflower blooming on the side of the road

Then we could say in our hearts

We will ascend to heaven

We will sit on the Mountain of Assembly

In the recesses of the north

And we fear not the crooked teeth of the drunken dancer

Or the wrinkles in the fragile face of ageing

Nor do we fear the hysteria of a moment

Because now we learned to laugh at ourselves

Now we free felled through the hole of our fears

And now we have nothing to prove but love

El sur grande

 

 

 

 

EGO=Enlightenment Gone Obsessive

If everyone was blind
Who would I try to impress?

See me
Hear me
Believe me
Recognize me
Acknowledge me
Accept me
Admire me
Love me

Me
Me
Me…

EGO=Enlightenment Gone Obsessive

So I am enlightened
Or so I wish to believe

And let everyone know
Who sees me

Recognize me
For who I have become

Admire me
For what I have to say

Accept me
For the peaceful loving and blissed soul I am

Me
Me
Me…

If everyone was blind
Who would I try to impress?

EGO=Everyone Grasping for Oneness

So what if I was enlightened
So what?

So what if I went to Nirvana
So what?

So what if I met God on Buddingevej
So what?

Me
Me
Me…

If everyone was blind
Who would I try to impress?

EGO=Everything Gone Over the top

Could I let go of me
And expect nothing in return?

Could I be in service so small (to the ego)
That no one would even recognize the service?

Could I try to impress no one
Even if everyone was blind?

Emancipate yourself

Standing in the shower
Water falling on her back
Like rain on a tin roof

Every drop of water
Slashes through her skin
Like a sharp knife

Laying bare the pain, the shame, the fear, the greed, the loneliness, the…
Of every child she ever was, of every girl she ever was, of every woman she ever was
Now and then

All the time trying to be a good girl
Fighting the ‘bad’
Hide away all that is not ‘good’

As she lay on the floor
In the shower
Water beating down on the surface of her back

Every drop of water
Is a revelation
Skeletons falling out of the closet

She realizes
Hide and seek is over
She has arrived

She is all – there is no good, there is no bad, there is just all
She breathes and
Emancipates herself

About Death IV (and about fears)

It started with a french fry. 20 years ago. But she still feels it. As if it were today.

The feeling of the french fry getting stuck in her throath.

The first conscious experience of mortality.

It wasn’t. The french fry. Getting stuck.

It happend in her mind.

And this was just the beginning.

But she had no idea.

20 years later and looking back. The fear of death was overwhelming her.

The fear of not being good enough.

Pretty enough.

Girly enough.

Beautiful enough.

Sexy enough.

Smart enough.

Clever enough.

Intelligent enough.

Important enough.

Worth enough.

She had no idea. That all of these ‘qualities’. All of these labels.

They do not matter.

All of her insecurities. Built up. Exploded in one french fry. That got stuck in her mind.

And haunted her for many years to come.

She didn’t know that you can die your insecurities.

She had no idea.