Month: December 2015
Once upon a time…
Let me tell you
What it feels like
To be left out
Once upon a time
There was a little girl
Her green eyes the passway to the star of Sirius
Her little hands painting the magic of the Universe
Through her All was One and One was All
Let me tell you
What it feels like
To be left out
Once upon a time
There was a little girl
Inside a voice softly caressed her whispering
Who are you to think you are magical?
Who are you to think you are All?
Let me tell you
What it feels like
To be left out
Was it the innocent words of ignorant boys
Spoken to a girl uncomfortable in the shape of her growing body
Too fast
Too tall
Too weird?
Or was it the voice inside her head
Going from soft and caressing to insisting and persuading
Penetrating her Open Heart
With its sophisticated and exquisite
Play of Chess?
Let me tell you
What it feels like
To be left out
Checkmate!
Once upon a time
There was a little girl
Who got caught up in the maze of her own mind
Lured into the Gingerbread house of Hansel and Gretel
Caught in a cage with Nāga
Let me tell you
What it feels like
To be left out
One day
She got up and out of the corner of the cage
Breathed into her belly
The passway to the star of Sirius
The magic of the Universe
Once upon a time
There was a little girl
Who fiercely looked the cobra in his eyes
And in the space between his hiss
And her realization of the illusion
In that space where all is
Without time
She caught her hidden wisdom
The death of who she had become
The death of whom she thought she was
Let me tell you
What it feels like
To be left out
Once upon a time
There was a woman
Transformed with the speed of light
Into something new that was in fact really old
Directed her to whom she already was
Who she had always been
For a year, I starred in the mirror
Oh but honey, why do you cry?
Those pale green eyes of yours
Tell a tale of
Love
I’m a Master of pretender
Hiding mine everything
Behind this sweet smile of mine
Behind these pale green eyes of mine
What if the road won’t take me there?
What if despair knocks down my door?
What if my heart won’t stop aching?
What if my eyes won’t stop crying?
What if love and to be loved is not enough?
I don’t know if I’m scared to die
I’m scared to live
too slow
too fast
I’m scared to reach the end
Not knowing if I lived or died
Not knowing if I found or lost
Not knowing…
Try not to hold on to
What is gone
Try not to long
For what has not yet come
Oh but honey, no need to cry
In those pale green eyes of yours
I see your soul
I hear a tale
Of the love that is to come…
EGO=Enlightenment Gone Obsessive
If everyone was blind
Who would I try to impress?
See me
Hear me
Believe me
Recognize me
Acknowledge me
Accept me
Admire me
Love me
Me
Me
Me…
EGO=Enlightenment Gone Obsessive
So I am enlightened
Or so I wish to believe
And let everyone know
Who sees me
Recognize me
For who I have become
Admire me
For what I have to say
Accept me
For the peaceful loving and blissed soul I am
Me
Me
Me…
If everyone was blind
Who would I try to impress?
EGO=Everyone Grasping for Oneness
So what if I was enlightened
So what?
So what if I went to Nirvana
So what?
So what if I met God on Buddingevej
So what?
Me
Me
Me…
If everyone was blind
Who would I try to impress?
EGO=Everything Gone Over the top
Could I let go of me
And expect nothing in return?
Could I be in service so small (to the ego)
That no one would even recognize the service?
Could I try to impress no one
Even if everyone was blind?
I used to swim in the shallow end of the pool
I didn’t know. But to control. Getting my way. Or the high way. I used to swim in the shallow end of the pool.
I used to swim in the shallow end of the pool
I used to swim in the shallow end of the pool
We didn’t see
I didn’t know
But to control
Getting my way
Or the high way
From behind
Life snuck up on me
Swaddling me
In chains of oppression
Oh so subtle!
I used to swim in the shallow end of the pool
Going on repeat
Who is right?
Who is wrong?
Who cares?
But we did
I used to swim in the shallow end of the pool
You were supposed to be the light when darkness takes me
The good when evil breaks me
The love that won’t forsake me
Ha! Ego laughs us in the face
Flashing its grim grin
Like the shark showing off teeth
Hiding our silver lining
Turning undesirable patterns into sticky energy
I used to swim in the shallow end of the pool
So sad
We didn’t see
I didn’t know
But to control
Where did you go little Darling?
I used to swim in the shallow end of the pool
Afraid to try
Afraid to fail
Afraid to drown
Until one day,
I realized
I had already drowned
So I began to swim
Into the depths of Oceans’ wisdom
I did not look back
Instead, I found the courage to stand up tall
Not afraid to try
Not afraid to fail
And here I found
No control
No getting my way
No right or wrong
No oppression
No disrespect
No sharks…
Now I swim
To the rhythm in my eyes
One foot on Earth
One in the land of Rainbows
My soul shining as the stars
I used to swim in the shallow end of the pool
Now I dance
With the wisdom of the depths of Oceans
Now I light the sparkle in your eyes
Now I set your soul on fire
And you wish to follow
But Darling, you must know
It takes the courage of an Open Heart
To plunge into the depths of Oceans’ wisdom
You will find yourself standing naked
With your heart on your sleeve
It is nothing
Like swimming in the shallow end of the pool
Slipping into my bikini
Waves of conquering my fears coming in
Grabbing my surfboard
Heading for the deep sea of blue
Wanna come?
Dying to Live
What if I die?
Oh but honey
what if that’s
when you live?
We’re all Hearts
In a land
far far away
where the grass
is greener
and the sky
is bluer
we are all
Hearts
How do I know this?
You may wonder?
I know it
because
sometimes
I wake up at night
and when I close my eyes
I am there
the hard part is
bringing it back with me
all that I have forgot
I remembered
and still don’t remember
but know I know
deep in my
Heart
So I try
to remember
by writing
these little
bits and pieces
never giving up
always searching
expecting to
one day
wake up
completely
and let the world know
what it is that we forgot
we remembered
until then…
Emancipate yourself
Standing in the shower
Water falling on her back
Like rain on a tin roof
Every drop of water
Slashes through her skin
Like a sharp knife
Laying bare the pain, the shame, the fear, the greed, the loneliness, the…
Of every child she ever was, of every girl she ever was, of every woman she ever was
Now and then
All the time trying to be a good girl
Fighting the ‘bad’
Hide away all that is not ‘good’
As she lay on the floor
In the shower
Water beating down on the surface of her back
Every drop of water
Is a revelation
Skeletons falling out of the closet
She realizes
Hide and seek is over
She has arrived
She is all – there is no good, there is no bad, there is just all
She breathes and
Emancipates herself
Bringing home the magic
There she was.
Balancing on the edge of the Universe
Drinking the morning dew of rainbows
Riding the backs of unicorns
Pulling down stars
With her tiny hands
Blow kissing them away
As little treats of candy
A magic child
Living innocently and free
Heart wide open
There she was.
Roaring like a lion in a cage
Raging like oceans fighting rock formations
Twisted bowels
Wrinkling up her whole face
Every inch, every cell, every fiber of her inside
Crying, aching, longing
Silently
Is this it?
What happened to that little girl with magic in her hands?
There she was.
One random morning
Abruptly shaken
Bowels falling into place
Face loosening up
Shields and armor
Falling to the ground
Naked to mine fears
Courageously rising to
Touch the stars once again
Drink of the fountains of love
Breathe the heart of the Universe
Still crying,
Still aching,
Still longing
But heart wide open
Living innocently and free
Bringing back the magic
Once again
Always
Forever